I'm counting down the days. Till my surgery on Wednesday, till the last day of the school year, till all this rumor stuff stops, till i can escape my town and leave. I want to grab the important things in my life and get away. Start a new life, without certain people and with new beginnings. Maybe i could raise a family in a city in California, become a musician, and live my life happily. I really want to just leave my town and start over. I probably will someday. I've been planning my life after high school since the beginning of 6th grade. I wish i could be like some of my friends and ignore their problems. But i can't, i look strong on the outside but that's a shell. The only person who can actually break that shell is Noah. He's the one who can get my sweet side out and my caring personality out. I act differently around people because I've been hurt to much in my life. Some things in my life hurt me, others lifted me up, and others make me depressed. Many things are going on in my life right now, and many of them negative. I wish they would stop, i know they will eventually. Noah and my friends cheer me up by acting stupid and silly. They make my life better. I thank them for that. I thank them for being in my life too. Thanks guys, for being there for me, through thick and thin. I'm really glad your in my life. I know you'll be there in spirit for my surgery, i know you'll make sure i'm fine afterwards. I know they'll make me stupid cards just cause they're my friends. I know i'll get teddy bears and hugs. Thankies guys.
~Caitlin :) <3
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